Are you ready for some Football!

Monday night football is on tonight. Yesterday was a football day as well. All the men gathered in my room to watch the games throughout the day. I had forgot how loud and obnoxious men can get. 2 eighteen packs, and 2 games later I was ready to kill someone. The room was ripped apart, my nerves were fried and I am still not sure how it was they got the popcorn in the places they did. It was loud, violent, foot stamping, belly laughing fun. I can't wait for next weekend. Tonight I kindly passed out as soon as I got in from work and now I am just getting settled in enought to watch the game. It promises to be a good one. My bet is on Pittsburg. I may grow to regret that choice but we'll have to see.

Hope all is well at home. I here you guys finally got rain. Good deal. We had a thunderstorm from hell hit here. I turned in to a jello cube that had melted. There is one thing that I am scared to death of and that is thunder. The guy's were actually good about not teasing me until this morning. I was on the edge of tears for about 3 hours last night. Lorene has her little people I have my thunder. Yes, I do know it's the lightning that does the damage I am still afraid of the noise. I get to look forward to a whole week of it in the evenings. I have no idea how I am going to make it through the week.

Just another day in Paradise

Well week one is done and over with. Not a bad week all in all. My body was forced to acclimate to Texas humidity. My sleep schedule is finally getting set straight. The people down here are making certain I don't go hungry. I have the bouncer's at the club across the street trained to know that it's all about me. I am pretty well stettled in for the long haul. The email's from everyone throughout the week helped to keep me sane so please keep them coming. I love to hear what's going on even if I can't be there to participate. Connie's party tonight should be a hit and I do expect to see those pictures. Everyone has to have at least one photo taken so I can giggle at the 80's garb.

TEXAS

Well I am here and managed to survive the first two days. The flight from Salt Lake to Houston was uneventful. The flight from Houston to Brownsville was interesting. We had to fly in on a little itty-bitty plane. This wouldn't have been bad except for the fact that half the people I am flying with are afraid to fly and we had a whole lot of turbulance. By the time we landed I was considering taking a bus home myself. I am almost certain Dave will be doing that. Once we did get settled in at our hotel we got the privilge of packing up and heading in to work for a four hour cram session on a new interface for the billing program we are using. By the time the day was over I had put in a good sixteen hour day. I was so wound up I didn't get to sleep until 2:00am. Thankfully I didn't have to be in to work until 10:30am. It pays to have say in when your shift will start. The kids here are all fairly bright so it wasn't a bad day at all. They seem to be catching on quickly. I hope it stays that way.

Connie says I need to get to bed now. I suppose she could be right. It's almost midnight here. I willl do my best to keep this thing updated. Oh, and remember this moment in time. I gave up seeing naked women just so I could write on this blasted thing.

Love you all. Miss you all.

You all missed it!

Last night's feasting, drinking and dancing were great except for a couple of minor things...the missing friends. For those of you who made it, thank you so much for joining us. I know that I was glad to see you and I am certain Connie feels the same way. For those of you that were unable to attend, I missed you all. I would have loved to have seen you there but I completely understand. Contrary to my favorite belief, the world does not revolve around me, and people around me are allowed to have a life outside of me. I do want you to know, however, you did miss "Drunk Connie". Have no fear there are pictures. Fortunately I was taking them so nothing can be held against me, hehehehe. See I did learn something after all those years with Connie.

Well I am going to try lying down and finally go to sleep without seeing eyes. Probably won't work but I am going to try.

STRESS!

Ok, I think I might be getting nervous now. My stomach has had butterflies in it since 3:30 this morning. I am having really bazaar dreams and now I can't sleep. If this goes on all weekend I will be screwed come Tuesday morning. I was supposed to have had yesterday off so I could do all my have to banking since it's a holiday weekend. Was this the case? Oh no. That would have been a nice thing to do for Grace. Now I am freaking out about whether or not the funds will be available when I get down there. I am actually debating on whether or not I should take down travelers checks or not. I didn't want to have to go and get them, but now...

Tonight's gathering is something I am looking forward to. Connie has already been told that I will be the driver so her intention is to wake up Sunday morning with a hell of a hang over wondering if she need's to call Lindi and apologize for anything that she may have said or done that was stupid. I think it maybe a very nice evening.

I am going to spend the morning looking for a good pair of boots and then I am taking the "Squid" up to Build-a-Bear for her birthday since I am going to be missing her's as well. It's hard to explain to a 4 year old that you can't just jump back on th e plane and come right back for her birthday. So, quality time with her Gracie is an important thing right now.

Wow, ten to five. Only 22 more hours in the day. Ugh! Maybe I should go take a sleeping pill. See you all tonight!

Bad blogging

I seem to be extremly negligint in my blog update's. I never seem to have time for any fun computer/web/geeky stuff lately. I apologize for not keeping up. I would say I will do better be we all know that ain't goin'a happen.

The count down is on. 7 day's before I leave. I have to do laundry, pack, go shopping for Taxas clothes, otherwise Utah cotten will kill me, I have one more teaching lesson to throw together, and 50 QA's I have to do. Oh, and I need to finish my Mom's pond in the front yard. I think I might like going to Texas, just for the simple fact, I may actually get some rest.

I plan on keeping in touch with everyone. I am updating address's, email's and phone number's on everyone. If I don't have all your info you will be hearing from me in one way or another, even if I have to drive around town until I find you.

Well better run. Work is calling to me.

Morning!

Jennifer would you really like me to comment on Saturday night? I am not sure if my body can handle the thought's that stream from the reliving of, even if it is just a mind activity, Saturday night. I had a blast though and we are definately doing it again. In fact I believe it's occuring this Saturday. I am coming to the conclusion that I will not be sleeping between now and the time I board the plane. Texas might be a welcome vacation.

I am getting details today about where exactly I will be staying. From what I have been told it's a sweet set up. I signed away my life to get my cash advance so that I will be able to pay for my car and food. It's amazing what people think the average person will spend on food. I am going to eat extremely well while I am gone. I have set up a weekend at the beach already. I have the class on surfing already arranged. I am so excited about being near water again I could just pee. I really do need to settle down in a coastal town somewhere. Water and I are not meant to be hundreds of miles from each other. The trip to Mexico is being organized as well. I am already gathering a list of the club's in the area if for no other reason than to go and sit and watch those Southern Belle's in thier tight Wrangler's. I know, that was pure testosterone.

I will be keeping in contact via email if Connie ever get's me that list I asked for. I will also try to Blog often so have no fear, you will all know when I break my leg because I allowed a wave to crash down on me while I was dangling from a piece of fiberglass in the middle of the Gulf.

Well time to get going. Lot's to do and running out of time to do it.

Sorry,

ok maybe not. I have been so busy I haven't had time to write. So time to play catch up.

Life is being good to me right now. I have caught up on a few hours/days of sleep so I have energy oozing out of me again. I have gotten up enough confidence to actually go out dancing and dance (I do mean more than one dance). I get to go to Texas (ok in all fairness I didn't know it was Texas when I said I would go). I finally got the job I wanted at work (thus the trip to Texas). What more could possibly go right for me (No, I can't get my own personal love slave, although that could be nice)?

DIRT!!

There is nothing better for the soul than hard labor. If you ever need to work through shit go grab a shovel and dig in the dirt. The bigger the hole the better it is for you. Clean out crap get as dirty and grimy as you possibly can. Sweat out all you have in you and then if it doesn't work the first time, do it again. If nothing else you will get all those project's your mom has been wanting to do done.

You are worth exactly: $2,133,922.00.

Human For Sale!

That's a suprise!

NOT!


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Long time not posting...

Time to get back into the real world. The day by day grind has come to a halt. I am not sleeping or working or thinking anymore. I am just existing. I need to try to get over and move on. I have to remember not to carry the grief and anger, but to carry the memories. I am trying to survive. I probably will. The saying 'Life is too short to worry' keeps coming to mind but I have a hard time living it.

You may be right Lorene. If there is something worth sharing I just might share.

Please everyone, just stop. I am not sure I can take to much more of this. I will be taking the blog offline completely as soon as I can find more than 2 minutes to sit in front of a computer. Thank you for all your concern over me. That includes JJ. I know you all have the best intentions but enough is enough.

Game Over

You win.

New Link

Added a new link. Thought the free virus scan was a good idea. If you do any downloading you may want ot run this once a week. PC-cillin is a very reputable company and has Verisign backing it up, so you know it's safe. Even if you have a firewall you might want to run this everynow and again. Also make sure you update you firewall software. If it's not updated and current you may as well take it off. Most firewall's have websites to update you software. If you aren't sure check with the manufacturer of the firewall.

Well, that's all for computer aid this week.

Hell of a weekend...

thankfully I can go back to the stress of boredom at work. And yes that is stressful.

*BREATHE*

There is something absolutely refreshing about knowing you have the knowledge of your own weaknesses and the will power to say no and walk away. There is something empowering in knowing that somehow you can squeeze into tight spots and still not lash out at the next thing to invade your space. There is something comforting about seeing someone smile and knowing that the world is ending the chaos. There is something securing about realizing where you belong and knowing how you need to get there.

Thanks everyone!



****As a side note don't ever let me drink more than 2 light beers again. It affects me completly differently than I remember. I think I am turning into a light weight.

Speed!

Wow, you don't know what you got until it's gone. My internet seem's 10 times faster than it was. Amazing the difference between 56Kbps and broadband speeds. There are day's when I think it is faster than the blasted connection at work and that's supposed to be a T3 connection.

Well, off to bed. Someone thinks I need to work tomorrow. Oh wait, that was me that did that to myself. Crap!

Pisces!

I have decided that I am done with Virgo bashing and I am now moving on to the fish. This is an area I feel more than a little comfortable in getting into. So let me tell you about dating a Pisces. Fish tend to go with flow, for the most part they are easy going individual's, just don't reach out to touch them because that spooks them and sends them into hiding. Yeah, so, while they are generally easy going people they can also be very stubborn when it comes to getting things done and done right. If the salmon wants to swim upstream it will not only swim against the current it will jump up the water falls and make it to the top of the river dispite what the laws of nature and logic say. Oh, and then there is the emotions of a Pisces. Pisces are probably more emotional people than Virgo's (sorry had to bring the Virgo's in for this one). They do not wear their emotions on their sleeves the way Virgo's do. Infact you would never know a Pisces felt anything unless you actually asked them what they are feeling. They do not like sharing that part of themselves and know that once they do they have opened the can of worms that will get them hooked and cooked. A Pisces will give their heart and soul to the people they love and want in their lives, but they will also meet, spawn, and swim away real fast if given the opportunity. They know what is out in the real world but enjoy the seclusion and safety of staying in the nice flowing water going where ever the river will take them. They love to dream and live in those dreams, anything to keep them from the chaos of the world. If the have to join the world they become obsessed with doing things right and quickly to be able to get back into the nice safe river. The downside of this is they want to do it ALL right and quickly so they tend to jump from one thing to next to the next and rarely accomplish any of what they set out to do. If they do become focused on one thing, then that one thing becomes everything to them and they will not only complete it they will have a knowledge about it that rival most everyone. Picses Love to learn about everything and do everything and until all has been learned and tried they are not complete, and they will end up becoming grumpy insomniac's. So given this bit of knowledge, dating a Pisces is like walking into a whole other world. They can be some of the most loving and attentive people in the world. They can also be one of the most noncommital flighty people you will ever come across. Oh yeah, and we talk to and answer ourselves out loud in the middle of public events. This is a frightening thing to discover at the time it begin's and for no reason your date is arguing with themselves about how they should have gotten the white rose not the pink on for this date and....If this does happen to you just smile and say "honey did you say something?" That will usually kick them back into reality and stop the self talking to for the rest of the evening.